I've been trying to make a list of things I want, when looking for someone, just to help this process go smooth and not accept any Joe Smo.
These are the things I don't want!
1. A liar 2. Drunk caller .. ( that's messy, looks sloppy) 3. Someone who makes promises they can't keep. 4. A guy who can't handle his own 5. Someone always looking for a handout. (Bum ass nigga) 6. Selfish 7.
I need to get back to the spontaneous, outgoing, loving, independent, crazy, intelligent, curious person I was a few years ago.
1. Having sex 2x a day anywhere, anytime. ( I just love being sexual ) 2. Pulling over and doing something naughty. 3. Not giving a fuck, being cautious but throwing caution to the wind. 4. Going to new places, trying new things, not waiting for anyone just making moves, even if it's by myself. 5. Not being afraid to make friends. 6.setting expectations for people that I meet, not accepting mediocre. 7. Be aware of red flags like being to needy. 8. Set out to search for a love that's just happy to be in love. ( if that makes sense) 9. surround myself with ppl who genuinely want my company. 10. Stop being a nurturer. 11. Willing to take risk 12. Accept that my comfort zone no longer exist. 13. Sarcasm ( just who I am) 14. Sexy dancing ... 15. Go streaking
That's all I have for today, but I want this to be a reminder on what I left behind and what I need to get back.
The Hoe-Li-days seems to always bring the best of spirits out of me, I'm pretty humble, but this year I'm a grinch!
My significant other has been begging me for knicks vs lakers tickets, so like a good girlfriend I make it happen. Just as I'm about to suprise him he hits me with "babe is it ok if I take my mom to the game instead of you!" ...(facial expression - WTF?!) I was initially mad, softened up to realize, it's an early Christmas gift he can do what ever he wants with it. The other part of me is like .. Your mother just cAme back into your life how dare You choose her over me.
I just discovered iPhone has an app for xanga, as you guessed it, I'm super stoked & can share much more stuff ( I know blah blah blah �)
So I did the ultimate ... Spy, stalker act that I'm not proud of, but it gave me a piece of mind, we all need that sometimes, don't we? Just that reassurance that perfect, "really is perfect" 🙊
I dedicated to change my hair color to something incredibly drastic ( check the pics) I can't lie it's given me a pep in my step and new found encouragement💁.
Thanksgiving 🍖this year was a flop, I can't please everyone. I decided to spend it with my immediate family & I even cooked! (Some ziti, �garlic & broccoli pasta & mashed potatoes & grilled shrimp �) my S/O was quite upset with my choice. I was wrong, I admit for waiting until the last minute & bailed on his family & thru arguing the truth came out that I'm just not comfortable being around his parents yet. It's been a back and forth notion but I work at my own pace, I don't want to just suck things up to make others happy, it's what I've done all my life, what about me? He feels that I'm selfish � but it's not that I just felt like I owed it to my parents to be with them. As they get older these holidays mean alot & they ACTUALLy care I'm around.
I know it may take him a whole to come around cause he's hurt I didn't spend it with him .. Just wondering how can I make it up to him?